shafey

Floorbed's filled with baby toys, an' empty coke
bottles an' cofee cups
Drivin' through the rain with no radio,
Tryin' not to wake her up.
Cell 'phone says "low battery",
God, what if I break down?
I'm just lookin' for an exit with a lotta lights,
A safe little interstate town.

Just a cheap hotel,
With a single bed,
And cable TV
Is good enough for me an' Emily.

Some day, when she's old enough,
She's gonna start askin' questions about him.
Some kid at school brings his Dad for show an' tell,
An' gets her little mind a-wonderin'
"Where's my Daddy? Do I have one?
"Does he not love me like you do?"
Oh, maybe I'll find someone to love the both of us,
An' I'll tell her when she's old enough to know the truth.

Will it break her heart?
Will she understand,
That I had to leave?
That's what was best for me an' Emily.

That house was never clean enough
his dinner never warm enough.
Nothing I did was ever good enough to make him happy.
So, I guess, he gave me what he thought I deserved,
But it would kill me if he ever raised his hand to her.

Big rigs are throwin' rain on my windshield,
An' I feel like they're laughin' at me.
Fin'lly the storm is lettin' up,
An' the mornin' is breakin' free.

It's a brand new day,
It's a second chance.
Yesterday is just a memory,
For me an' Emily.
Ah.

Floorboard is filled with baby toys,
An' empty coke bottles an' coffee cups.
Least there's one good thing that he gave me,
An' she's startin' to wake up.

I heard this song when I was with Kell last night and then today on my way home from work, I remember the night that my mom found out that my dad was cheating on her and she took me and my little brother who was two weeks old and we stayed in this nasty hotel with glow in the dark stars on the ceiling, it reminded me of that so much that i started to cry. I love my mom so much and I don't think that I make a point to tell her as much as I should. Stupid me having to work all of the time and her having to work all the time. Work is okay, I work over eight hours a day, so suffice to say the money is pretty good, I had the most incredible experience at Steubenville! OH MY GOSH! PS I LOVE BEING CATHOLIC! I miss Russell but I know that he is having a great time. Well I am going to get going, but I will write soon, I really need to update more frequently! Love and God Bless.

Shaf

Okay, so I definitely think that I am in love, or at least in like...like seriously, is this what love is? I can't sleep and I know that I have to get up and go to work in the morning, but I can't help it. The kiss, this is so dumb, why would I talk about this in my Live Journal, I never ever update this thing anyways. Maybe because it is 2 in the morning and there is no one else to talk to? Just a thought. I tried calling Cait because I thought that she would still be awake but no luck. Okay, so tonight was absolutely wonderful! "The Notebook" is such an incredible movie! WOW! And i got to see it with the prettiest girl in the whole world! I really really think that I want to marry her! It was so good to talk to Laura! I never ever thought that I would go to Laura Best for advice!?! Man, I am definitely the luckiest guy EVER! Except for the fact that I have to get up at 3:30, which is in a half an hour. Love and God Bless

Shaf

Current Mood: giddy

Just so everyone knows, we are going to see Spider Man 2 tonight at 12 at the Hagerstown ie Leitersburg movie Theaters! Everyone is more than welcome to come, call my cell phone at 240-217-3649 beforehand. Also, we are going to watch the first Spiderman at my house, Estimated Start Time 9:00! Call ME! Love and God Bless! I miss Illie!

Wow, I just realized that it has been an awfully long time since I have updated this,and I should. So, i did, talk to you soon! Love and God Bless

Happy Birthday Russell, sorry that I have not updated! Hope to see you all soon, off to sleepy sleep.
Love and GB
Shaf

Sorry that I have been a bum about updating. I have been in kind of a funk of late. I can not explain it. The Variety Show on Friday night went really well, tons of people came and that is always really good because we can always really use the money. My skit was hysterical, or so I hear. I worked at the Special Olympics Basketball yesterday. That was a really rewarding experience. Then I went with Owen, Russell, Dave, Cassie, and Brad and Aaron and Jordan and some other really cool people to Juanita's but I didn't eat, and then I gave Dave my wallet, because he said that he needed two bucks and I told him that there were two one's in the front and now I am missing twenty dollars. I love my Granny, I just thought that I would let that be known, I am going to miss her when she is gone, when I am gone, when I am not able to see her every single day because I have for the majority of my life, speaking of which I got accepted into Georgetown, too bad I can not afford to go there...In any event. I really wish that College Park would give me a holler and tell me that I got into their school. I am not going to be in school much this week, well except for English because I am going back to page it up and intern at the State Legislature. I am really sorry for the times that I have taken all of my problems out on my friends. I am sorry, I love you guys and I know that we will not always have this time so I hope that you can find it in your hearts to forgive me. The more that I think about it the more that I don't really know if I want to grow up. I don't know no sense worrying about it because I can not change these things, just a thought. I love Jesus. Just thought that I would state that. I really need to go and work on these AP US History questions and also on The Sound and the Fury. Lovely book, albeit slightly twisted. I love you all. TRULY. God Bless.

Shaf

Papa I think I messed up again was it something I did? Was it something I
said? I don't mean to do you wrong it's just this way of human nature!
Sister I know I let you down. I can tell by the fact you're never comin
round..You don't have to say a thing..I can tell by your eyes exactly what
you mean. That it's time to get down on my knees and pray. Lord undo
me put away this flesh and bone til you own this spirit threw me. Lord
undo me. Mama I know I made you cry, but I never meant to hurt ya. I
never meant to lie. While the world shook it's head in shame I let you take
the blame. Brother I know you labored so hard to please.. But I cut you
down and I left you on your knees...well I know it must be...I am wanting,
needing, guilty & greedy. Unrighteous, unholy undo me. Abba father you
must wonder why more time than Peter I have denied. Three nails and a
cross to prove I owe my Life eternally to you!

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: "undo me" by jennifer knapp

Okay so have the bunta's submitted a candidate for the next Presidential race? Because if they haven't then they should. This is just the epitome of it all, enter Sarah Connor: aka the Bunta Queen.
Sarah is the songstress of the latest bunta anthem: "Bounce" It goes a little something like this:
Said youre going with your boys today and
Dont worry casue Ill be home late
But I know youre creepin out there cheatin
Youve been freakin babe
So let me tell you how its going to be
And you can run game but not on me boy
So who the hell are you trying to kid
You know this is what I did

I called your pager and your two way boy but no response
Start looking and found you in some other women’s arms
Dont try to front boy cause I saw you there with my own eyes
Just get your stuff boy cause Im tired of hearing all your lies

Chorus
Bounce baby out the door
I aint gonna take this no more
Bounce baby out the door
Get up and move
Dont make me act a fool
Just bounce

Verse 2
Baby boy I know youll never find
No stuff as good as mine
She cant work you like I did
You can look but you know I got that good shit
I know that youre hating it
But you better stay with the one youre with
You made your bed and now you have to sleep in it baby

Rap
Wait a minute Sarah give me a chance to explain
I was just talking to shorty I dont even know her name
I aint looking for no one to come and take your place
Aint no one out there baby that can fill your space
No need to find a nickel got a dime at home
Plus I love every night the freaky way we bone
I aint trying to get gone aint trying to roll
Id rather stay and be a part of your green eyed soul

okay so my favorite portion of the song goes: "get up and move before I act a fool" okay...thank you watch as I look that up in the Random House dictionary of BUNTA! Man it cracks me up. Everyone should be made to listen to some Marvin Gaye, Tammy Terell, Gladys Knight and Otis Redding. I must also point out that I love the use of old cliches such as "You made your bed now lay in it..." That is what I have to say about that. Love and God Bless

Current Mood: mischievous
Current Music: The BUNTA anthem, because it is stuck in my head: "Bounce"

I'm leaving on a midnight train to Georgia. Oh wouldn't that be lovely?!? On the up side I have A's in all of my classes, that is right all three of my AP classes! Go for me! And I got a real parking spot...excitement! Maybe not to anyone else, but for me it is a big step! LOL! Well I am off to rehearsal...always a blast. Talk to you later. Love and God Bless.

Shaf

Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: Isn't this obvious "Midnight Train to Georgia" Gladys Knight

I just came home from the funeral and I just want everyone of my friends to know how much I love them, because I do not tell you guys nearly enough. I miss you all immensely. We need to do something. Is Saturday okay? Comment back to me. Love you all again!

Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: "Trading My Sorrows"